Faith has been showing up differently for me lately.

Not necessarily faith connected to a particular religion or belief system, but faith in the unfolding of my life.

Faith that I don’t have to know exactly what comes next.
Faith that releasing something doesn’t always mean losing it.
Faith that sometimes we have to create space before we can see what is waiting to fill it.

And perhaps the hardest one for me:
Faith that I don’t have to make everything happen.

When Holding On Feels Safer Than Letting Go

For most of my life, I’ve known how to make things happen.

I’ve spent 25 years building a career, creating, designing, problem-solving, meeting deadlines, developing strategies, and figuring out the next step.

When something wasn’t working, my instinct was to work harder.

Create another plan. Send another email. Find another solution. Do something.

There is comfort in doing because doing gives us the illusion that we are in control.

But over the past few years, I’ve repeatedly felt called to do something that has been much harder for me:

Release.

Release what no longer feels aligned.
Release expectations.
Release relationships, roles, identities, and ideas about how things are supposed to happen.
Release the need to know the outcome.
And most recently, release a career that has been part of my identity for 25 years.

That is a big release.

Who Am I Without the Thing I’ve Always Done?

Walking away from a long career isn’t simply changing jobs.

There is identity wrapped around it.
There is security.
There is familiarity.
There is proof that you know what you’re doing.
There are years of experience that tell you, This is who you are.

So what happens when something you've been very good at no longer feels like where you're meant to stay?

For me, the answer hasn't arrived as a perfectly mapped-out five-year plan.

Instead, I've been learning to live inside the space between what was and what's becoming.

And that space requires faith.

Faith Doesn't Mean You're Not Afraid

I used to think letting go meant reaching a place where you were no longer afraid.

I'm beginning to see it differently.
You can be afraid and still release.
You can question yourself and still move forward.
You can grieve what you're leaving while knowing it isn't where you belong anymore.
You can appreciate everything an old chapter gave you without needing to remain there forever.
Faith isn't necessarily certainty.

Sometimes faith is simply saying:

I don't know exactly where this is taking me, but I'm willing to find out.

From Making It Happen to Allowing It to Happen

This has probably been one of the biggest shifts for me.

I've spent much of my life in "make it happen" energy.

If I wanted something, I created a plan around it.
If something wasn't moving quickly enough, I pushed.
If there was an obstacle, I figured out how to get around it.

There is nothing inherently wrong with action. We need action to create things in this world.

But I've had to look at the difference between inspired action and forced action.

One feels like movement. The other feels like pushing a boulder uphill.

I'm learning that I don't have to chase every possibility, convince every person, force every collaboration, or solve every uncertainty immediately.

Sometimes my work is to create. Sometimes it's to act. Sometimes it's to wait.

And sometimes it's simply to notice where the current is already trying to take me.

Learning to Move Like Water

Water has become an important symbol for me.

Water doesn't stop being powerful because it flows.
It doesn't need to force its way through everything in front of it.
It moves around obstacles.
It changes shape.
It responds to its environment.
It can be incredibly gentle and incredibly powerful.
And it keeps moving.

I've been learning to ask myself:

What would happen if I stopped fighting the current?

Not giving up.
Not becoming passive.
Not abandoning my dreams.

But releasing my grip on exactly how those dreams have to happen.

There is a difference.

The Sacred Circle

I've also been fortunate to be part of a Sacred Circle where we pour into one another's dreams.

There is something incredibly powerful about being witnessed while you're becoming.

We share our visions.
We encourage one another.
We celebrate movement.
We hold space when someone is uncertain.
And we remind one another of our dreams when fear makes them harder to see.

But one of the biggest lessons I've received through this experience isn't about doing more to achieve my dreams.

It's been about learning how to receive.

To allow other people to pour into me.
To trust that I don't have to carry everything alone.
To plant the seed without digging it up every few days to make sure it's growing.

That's very different from the way I've operated for much of my life.

What If Releasing Isn't Losing?

We're taught to hold on.

Hold onto the job.
Hold onto the relationship.
Hold onto the plan.
Hold onto what you've built because you've already invested so much into it.
Hold onto what is familiar because at least you know what happens there.

But I've started asking a different question:

What am I unable to receive because my hands are still full of things I've outgrown?

Sometimes letting go isn't about rejection. It's about making room.

There may be opportunities we can't see yet because we're so focused on maintaining what already exists.
There may be people we haven't met.
Places we haven't gone.
Gifts we haven't fully explored.
Versions of ourselves we haven't had the space to become.

We can't always know what will enter the space we create.

That's where faith comes in.

I've Been Asked to Let Go More Than Once

I wish I could say I've mastered this lesson. I haven't.

Life has called me to release and let go many times. And apparently, I keep needing the reminder.

Every time I think I've surrendered, I discover another little corner where I'm still gripping tightly.

Another expectation.
Another timeline.
Another outcome.
Another version of how I thought things were supposed to look.

It hasn't been easy for me. But perhaps that's exactly why this lesson matters so much.

It's Not Just About Releasing Fear

We talk a lot about "letting go of fear."

But I think that simplifies what letting go actually asks of us.

Sometimes what we're releasing isn't bad.
Sometimes it served us beautifully.
Sometimes we loved it.
Sometimes it gave us security, purpose, relationships, experience, confidence, or identity.
Sometimes we're incredibly grateful for the chapter we're closing.
We're simply no longer meant to live there.

Letting go isn't always saying:

This was wrong.

Sometimes it's saying:

This was right for who I was then. I'm open to discovering what's right for who I'm becoming now.

Being Open to Change

Maybe faith isn't about believing everything will unfold exactly the way we want.

Maybe it's being willing to allow life to surprise us.
To recognize when something has completed its purpose.
To stop measuring our future against our past.
To allow ourselves to change our minds.
To follow curiosity.
To receive.
To move when we feel the opening.
To rest when we don't.
To stop forcing doors that continually require us to abandon ourselves to keep them open.

And to trust that creating space is not the same thing as creating emptiness.

Space is possibility.

Riding the Wave

Right now, I don't have every answer.

I'm building Zenity Vibes.
I'm creating.
I'm exploring my gifts.
I'm allowing my work to evolve.
I'm surrounding myself with people who believe in one another's dreams.

And I'm practicing something that doesn't always come naturally to me:

Trusting the wave instead of trying to control the ocean.

Some days I feel completely aligned with it. Other days I want my spreadsheets, timelines, guarantees, and five-step plan back. LOL.

I'm learning that both can exist.
I can be intentional without controlling everything.
I can have dreams without demanding exactly how they arrive.
I can take action without forcing outcomes.
I can have faith and still have questions.
I can release something and still honor everything it gave me.

And I can be uncertain about what comes next while still knowing that I'm ready for change.

What Are You Ready to Make Space For?

Maybe you're standing at the edge of your own transition.

Maybe something you've been holding onto doesn't fit anymore.

A career.
A relationship.
An expectation.
A role.
A belief about who you're supposed to be.
A timeline you created years ago.

You don't have to know exactly what will replace it before acknowledging that something is ready to change.

Perhaps the invitation isn't to leap without thinking.

Perhaps it's simply to loosen your grip.
Listen.
Notice.
Create a little space.
And see where the water wants to take you.

Because sometimes faith isn't standing still and hoping something happens.

Sometimes faith is having the courage to release the shore... and ride the wave toward a life you can't fully see yet.

Riding the Wave of Faith: Releasing Control and Making Space for What’s Next